๐ˆ๐Ÿ ๐ข๐ญ ๐๐จ๐ž๐ฌ๐งโ€™๐ญ ๐จ๐ฉ๐ž๐ง, ๐ข๐ญโ€™๐ฌ ๐ง๐จ๐ญ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ๐ซ ๐๐จ๐จ๐ซ. โฃ
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Iโ€™m guilty of trying to force those doors open. Trying to fit in to a box that wasnโ€™t mine to be in.

I was driven by the constant need to fit in. Be included. Be LIKED. Fitting myself into a mold that just wasnโ€™t me.
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It was almost exactly a year ago when I decided to say โ€œYESโ€ to myself. โฃ
The real me- not the me that I thought I should be, or the one others wanted me to be. โฃ
โฃDid I wake up one day and suddenly not care what others thought?

Of course not.

I still struggle with that. Everyday. But what I did do was decide that MY opinion mattered more than anyone elseโ€™s.

Do I like who I am? Am I being true to myself? Am I happy? Are my actions affecting my loved ones?

Those are the questions that I constantly ask myself, especially when I find myself feeling less than or knocking on those doors that arenโ€™t mine.

The last year Iโ€™ve found out more about myself and embraced my truth more than ever before. Itโ€™s been quite a year, and Iโ€™m so proud of my growth.


My only regret?โฃ
๐˜•๐˜ฐ๐˜ต ๐˜ฅ๐˜ฐ๐˜ช๐˜ฏ๐˜จ ๐˜ช๐˜ต ๐˜ด๐˜ฐ๐˜ฐ๐˜ฏ๐˜ฆ๐˜ณ. โฃ

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